Happy October and Fall! Lovely season is back with new colors, energy and thoughts! I had a great summer with perfect family time and me time!
I am back again after a break and this time not a deliberate one. Thank you for those who were asking me about my new blogs! That means a lot to me. I was wondering what has been my blocker?! Definitely not TIME for I always have or make time for something I love to do. I thought it could be a writer’s block (Woo..fancy word!). But then I wondered if a blogger is a writer in the real sense. Nevertheless, I decided to decode my blocker as I set to untangle the mind!
I started off blogging many many years ago while in college mostly to document college days and related fun. Then it turned into a creative (well to the extent I was) outlet for many things I enjoyed. Most importantly this was my way to keep up with my love for writing as I was always fascinated to express myself through writing. The other day, my mom mentioned how she missed my poetry I used to write for her and my handwritten letters . That got me thinking about my writing(for that matter even reading) in general as well as my blog! When I look at where my blog is now, I wonder if this is what I want it to look like. I am surely not short of ideas to create content. As the blog’s tag line says, there are many things that interest and inspire me and I could write about many. But will that be good enough! Good enough for what? Not sure! But I know its some fear that is holding me up! I follow other bloggers who greatly inspire me everyday but at times make me feel inadequate (in many ways) to publish (not write) a “Good blog”. I know it is not the right thing to feel and I have to work on it.
All the technical details I learnt about blogging in the recent past.. SEO, readability, affiliations, searchability. traffic, subscribers etc bogged me down questioning my content and presentation! This senseless fear stopped me from publishing and writing many things I wanted to talk about. I tried blogging challenges and other self discipline methods that dint work quite well for me. But I realized that nothing is going to help me unless I believe in myself and give the best I can only because I know I will enjoy it.
So what am I going to do now after all this rambling? I am going to buckle up and keep up with the blog and continue to write about what interests and inspires me. In other words, I promise myself to continue writing that resonates with my personality and most importantly enjoy doing it without having to worry if it is good enough. Be real and keep my blog dancing too!
What you are afraid of is a clear indication of the next thing you need to do – Ralph Waldo Emerson